2012
On Being Pregnant…The End is Nearing!
I’m pushing 34 weeks pregnant and can definitely see the light at the end of the tunnel. Soon, our little dude will be out and we’ll be able to see him, smell him, and get to know him and all that good stuff. I’ll be able to have my body back…sort of, have some wine, eat sushi, and sleep on my back again. Wonderful, right? Umm, I guess so.
What I’m getting at here, is that there’s a huge part of me that’s excited for all of the stuff that I just listed to happen, but there’s also a huge part of me that doesn’t want this to end! I have absolutely LOVED being pregnant. I know some of you may be looking at your computer screens in disbelief, and I’ve heard all the horror stories about crazy and hideous pregnancy symptoms, pain, discomfort, hormonal storms, and any other assorted bad thing that can be associated with being pregnant. Sure, I’ve had some of those symptoms, but I’ve also really enjoyed each and every stage of this whole magical, mystical, strange time in my life.
At almost 41 years old, I’ve spent a lot of my life being my own person. I’ve enjoyed being an independent, capable, female. I’ve also enjoyed being pregnant. The sad thing to me is that, in the big picture, this is a very temporary part of who you are as a woman. Considering that the female body was designed to build a little human, the most amazing magical time seems to just fly by.
When I’m holding my tiny son for the first time in my arms, there will be a little part of me that feels a loss…he’ll never again be as close to me as he has been for the last 40 weeks. I’ve felt him grow, move, hiccup, constantly sensed his presence, and taken him with me everywhere I’ve gone. From the moment he leaves my body and enters the world, he’ll be on an endless pursuit to gain a little more independence as each moment of his life passes. Sure, he’ll depend on me for things, but I’ll watch him drift a little further away each day.
Now before you start thinking that I’m gonna be one of “those” mothers, the one who lives vicariously through her children and loses all sense of her own identity and purpose in life, think again! From the moment that Matt and I started discussing ever having children we both agreed that our job in all this is to raise an independent, productive, capable person that can go out into the world and make great things happen! That being said, we’re here to do our best to give our son the tools that he needs to do all that…I’ll quietly be putting that little sad part of me away somewhere forever; after all, the joy I get from knowing him will fill the space very quickly!
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You are an amazing woman and you will have an amazing son! You are right, there is a part of us as women that mourns the time we had where we didn’t have to “share” our baby…but that is so far outweighed by the joys of watching the baby grow and learn and to watch the endless wonder as they discover this world! Love you, sis!
@HeatherBrowneDearborn Thanks, Heather! Yeah, feeling a little emotional about this part of the journey ending, but I know it’s just part of the process! Can’t wait for the next stage…and the next…and the next! Love you too!!!
@AnnieBrowne @HeatherBrowneDearborn LOL – you are lucky it’s only a little emotional – some women are known for those crazy hormonal emotions! You’re doing such a beautiful job being you, being wife and being mom! And always remember that you must take care of you so that you can take care of Matt and Little!
@HeatherBrowneDearborn Well, don’t make any bets just yet, there’s still time for me to get more emotional as this journey moves along! Thank you, the most important things in my life are Matt and Little Browne…so taking care of them is the priority!!!
@HootNAnnieBlog @AnnieBrowne Blessings to you both as the last month approaches.
Thank you so much! Good times ahead!!! @TalesoftheCork Blessings to you both as the last month approaches. @HootNAnnieBlog
@AnnieBrowne You’re welcome for the RT! #Parenting #Pregnancy
@MatthewLiberty
Love you!
@AnnieBrowne Love you too!!
@dabarlow Annie is really good at writing about how she feels! @AnnieBrowne #Parenting #Pregnancy
@hmdearborn Thanks Auntie/ Sister lady! #Parenting #Pregnancy
@MatthewLiberty No problemo!
Oh Annie, that was wonderful. You are going to make an amazing mother.
@nightrainmoon13 Oh, thank you so much!!! I appreciate the feedback. I know it’ll be a huge challenge, but we so excited about it! Cheers!!!
@BillNigh Thanks for that RT man!! #Pregnancy #Life #Emotions
@MatthewLiberty Great blog Annie!
Thank you, Alyse!!! It’s been a great ride so far…can’t wait for the next phase! @nightrainmoon13 Great blog Annie!
@MatthewLiberty
Love reading the blog and seeing your progress. Everyone’s journey is different and thanks for being so honest about how you have felt. My regards to Matt and Baby Browne.
@lucilla feliciano Thank you, Lucilla! We’ve really been enjoying the journey, and one of the best parts has been the ability to share it! It’s been amazing to feel the love and support out there and can’t wait to share it all with Little Browne. Cheers to you!
@MatthewLiberty @AnnieBrowne definitely have some wine!!!! SOON!